Just Cant Focus

So ive posted before About my teacher. But I had another dream about him. For the past two days in class I can’t focus for anything. Every time I look at him I see everything that happened in my dream and I feel almost awkward about it like you can read my mind. I know he can’t but I feel like secretly deep down he has the same dreams and he knows about it. He is gods gift to women. Even when he tries to be mad or angry he comes across as sweet. Hes a huge teddy bear. 

Anyways, eveytime i look at him i see us fucking. Fucking on his desk, fucking in his car, fucking in the closet, fucking , fucking, fucking. And i know hes huge. You can tell by the way he walks. And sometimes when he sits on the desk and his pants tighten up you can see his bulge. 😳😍 GOOOODDDD! THANK YOU!!

I had to bring some papers up to him today and i swear it was the most nerve wrecking thing ever. Its only scary cause i dream about him every night and i feel like he knows. I saw this thing on whisper and at my school somebody had posted about sleeping with a teacher. God do i hope its him. Its probably not cause he hates pedaphiles but once im not in school anymore, whos to say what happens. 

I know it would be the best fucking sex of my life. 

fwb back

so my fwb that had to move away is now back. i havent been in touch with him because of fear that he will think i ACTUALLY want to be with him in a relationship kind of way. but i didnt have to reach out to him, he reached out to me. he messaged me last night and he was in the shower. god thats so hot. anyways he wants me to come over tonight. i havent been with him in about 2 weeks so im sure hes horny. i cant wait to see how this plays out. im glad hes back. im glad i have my fwb back, now i just have to wait to find out how long i have him for.

Dear mr. teacher……

notice: this is all a dream i had last night this is not real. nothing illegal has occurred.

so my VERY hot history teacher came over and i’ve always had this unbelievable crush on him. he’s tall and muscular and tan and he has a beard which to me is very sexy. anyways we fucked. it of course was the best sex ive ever had in both dream world and the real world. it was like nothing ive ever felt before. he was different. he wasnt fast and furious, but slow and gentle which is definitely all very different from most of my  endeavors. we slept together after that which again is very different from past experiences. this attraction to older men is definitely killing me. i cant touch them and they cant touch me. everything is against the rules and taboo. god what  i would do to get my hands on him. everyday in class i fantasize about seducing him and fucking him on his desk. that fear of getting caught would make it even hotter and more exciting. of course because of this my grades dont always reflect what i actually know cause i easily get distracted. but i just bat my eye lashes at him and he lets me get away with everything. images

can sluts justify feelings?

can sluts have feelings? i mean can we really justify having feelings for another person? can we justify being hurt because we are being “used”? i mean we are subjecting our self to incriminating acts of meaningless sex so how can we justify that our feelings are valid? how can we justify anything? we can’t get mad over being “used.” that is how we present ourselves to the world. a dirty slut anyone can use so when we actually are we cant cry about it and act like we didnt really ask for it. we did. im not talking about rape or unwanted ventures, im talking about having hurt feelings when someone just wants you for sex. i guess we can still strive and thrive for a real relationship, but no one wants to wed a slut. she no good. shes used up. shes damaged goods with daddy problems and fear of commitment. she’s not who you wanna take home to mom and dad. she’s not who you want to brag about to your friends. she’s nothing. once your in the  slut zone you cant crawl your way back out, you’re stuck there probably for forever. once someone knows, you no longer are valid in the department of potential partners. i guess that’s the price we pay. we have our momentary fun and then we pay our dues of hellos and goodbyes and we move on. and one man after another, we secretly hope one of them will fight for us and want us to only be their little slut.  

Higness

Right now guy 2 is skyping me and we are having fun! He is fucking playing with my mind and i secretly love it.  My top is off right now and he secrtely loves it even though he denies it. God do i wanna fuck him. Just one hard ass fuck. Thats it. He’d fuck me in the ass and i’d LOVE it . Ughh he’d fill me up.  Still talking to him and hes so sexy

Everybody Loves A Good Slut

I think why we’re so in love with sluts as a culture, is because they do what we wish we could do ourselves. They have no boundaries. And that is exactly what i’m out to do. Be someone everyone else secretly wishes they could be. I’m already a slut but i’m a closeted slut so nobody knows except those i fuck. 

I lost my fwb. So now im off to find another. There are no good contenders though. Actually there’s one. He was my first actually. But ill talk about tht in another post. Anyways hes gotten so much hotter since then. Unfortunetly i think ive gone in the other direction of the attractiveness scale. 

I wanna tie him to the bed and blindfold him, but hes too scared. Maybe i could persuade him ;). I think hes afraid of not having power but im not in it for the psycho babble bullshit. He would look so good tied up and squirming underneath me. He just doesnt know it yet. No im not gonna force him i think he just might wanna see it my way if i let him do it to me first. I can share power.
Hes not like all the others. He more laid back. Relaxed. Hes very………. VANILLA. Everyone else wants to be freaky but not him. Thts why he’s so intriguing . I wanna make him a freak. 

Horny as hell…

Wanting to fuck so badly over here. I would offer it up like candy but i prefer to be a secret slut. Its a lot more fun. I did get an offer from thomas. Hes younger than me, but he quite experienced. I should fuck him just to fuck. Tht other guy though. He had to move so hes no longer in close fucking proximity. But boy do i miss his dick. Maybe i could get them both together and we could all fuck. That might be a little weird. Oh well who cares right. I did fuck sam the other day. It was so good. I went over to his house and went to his room. It started out like all other fucks do. But he fucked me so hard it was hard to sit up afterwards. My pussy still is throbbing from it. He came all over me. And of course i sucked him off so he was clean. Just thinking about it makes me so wet. Be horny all the time is a real hassle. 

What a Fantasy

I went over to his house again. This time expecting the usuall of course. I would suck him off, he’d plow me and i’d leave faster than immediatly after. 

This time was different though. I slid into the back door as always and slipped off my shoes so to be a polite guest. (Even though a guest wasnt really the right word for me i suppose). I edged my way around the house to where he layed and sat down beside him. Its odd. Sometimes he “romances” me by playing me a song on his guitar or just cuddling up and watching a movie for the 180 min it plays (which i dont expect nor require) but sometimes its all i can do to keep him from fucking me before i get into the house. Will same guy explain this to me?

Anyways, i found his hide out by his couch and proceeded to sit beside him and expect the expected. However, he just looked over and smiled at me with a almost subtle glow of ignorance. I smiled back. 

Well here we go

I honestly think i have feelings for him but i know thats against the rules even though we dont have any rules. Sure i wanted more i guess but i wasnt avout to waste my fuck time on feelings and emotions. 

I slide over top his body kissing him up his torso and to his lips. We kissed passionately which was a new feeling. He grabbed my head knowing instantly what i wanted and flipped me onto my back. He slid his tongue down my chest, my stomach, and my thighs. O what a feeling. He came back to my nipples to suck on them for a while. This made me squirm.  He took off my shirt and next my pants. I as always wore no underwear as to make for easy access. He slid off my bra with 2 fingers and off we went.

Now lying on top of him, NAKED, i slid his shirt off and ran my tongue down his chest to his member. I placed it in my warm mouth and ran my tongue up and down his shaft. Next i took his balls into my mouth sucking gently. This made him MOANNNNNNM. GOD THATS THE BEST SOUND!!!!!! He ground his hips into my mouth wanting more. Continued i did. 

After a good oral lap, he had to stop me before he blew. So he pushed me onto my stomach and slapped my ass. I love it when he spanks me.!!! He gently bit my ass and kissed it. His warm mouth!!! 

Sliding his member into me, i groaned which in turn made him groan. He fucked me from behind and pounded me hard. So hard i think we repositioned the couch. Of course aftet a good fucking and sucking he came all in my mouth, and me being the little slut i am, swallowed every last bit. Mmmmm!

I of course slid on my clothes as to not make him aware of what i look like naked when all the blood is where it is supposed  to be and ran out to my car, leaving him naked and hopefully longing. 

Im so sore. I feel like i got rammed by a pole and thats my favorite feeling of a time. I still have trouble sitting and walking. 

We fuck so much i wonder if he’ll get bored. Maybe i should take a break, but i would miss that cock way too much! 

 

SECRET HOPES?!

You know they always tell you that fwb will never work. Someone will always develop feelings blah blah blah. This however, is the best thing that could of happened to me. Its way better than having a bf or being in a realtionship. You dont have to worry about buying each other presents or txting each other everyday. All that bullshit is not necessary. I secretly think though that i enjoy it more than him. Is that possible? Can a girl want/ enjoy sex more than a guy? Idk. As long as this thing is consistent ill be fine. Funny story hes actually kinda in love with my best friend and my best friend likes him back so im fucking him behind her back. Yes i know im fucked up and no i dont want to hurt her but when an opportunity to fuck comes along you dont just through it away. I passed him today. Im not quite sure how im supposed to act. I know im not supposed to act like we’re fucking or that we even really are friends but i totally ignored him. Its probably best. Why do i wanna fuck so badly? Last night i asked if he wanted to and at first he said no. Sadly i THOUGHT about calling up a few other friends seeing if they wanted to fuck that night. I didnt. He called me later anyways and changed his mind. He came so fast yesterday. Question. Does that mean im getting better at sucking him off or is it something else? The first time we fucked for 30 min straight and he still never finished but now its 2 min or less. I should not complain.  I know i like him but its different. Honestly my biggest fear is he wont want this as long or as much as i do and after this is over we wont be “friends” anymore. We”ll see about tonight. Hopefully he fucks me. HARD.